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Dear Pinky and Greeny,
Today, as I browsed through past photographs, I realised something. I do miss you guys after all. For a while when we came to Harmony, I thought I'd lost you all for good. Then, I found Jon and yada yada. Basically, I lost you two or rather, you could say I let you two slip away from me. I thought a lot about it and I kept thinking. Was it true that I was just too different from the two of you and that's why I couldn't fit in? I don't know. I guess that's what I let myself believe. And lately I've come to realise that maybe that's just an excuse I made for myself. I didn't want to tell myself that... "Hey, it's your fault. You didn't try hard enough..." I don't know. Frankly, I thought I tried and I always believed that it was you guys who weren't trying or rather... Didn't bother trying anymore. Come Secondary Four and I thought... It's over. It was like a broken relationship with no more love. I evaded you two. Thought that was the best way. Till a conversation with Jon brought me back to Earth.
And it struck me.
I had two perfectly best friends in CCHMS. I could have been really happy there... But I wasn't. Because I lost them. That was the first downfall of my CCHMS life. Truly. Since the two of you kept growing closer and me, away from you all. I started to build this wall of defence around myself. I told myself that... I was going to be okay without you two and I wouldn't miss you all that much. But I was wrong. I still miss Threesome, really. I thought I'd convinced myself that it didn't matter how close you two were and how drifted I was from the two of you. I figured... I was hurt enough. It probably wouldn't happen anymore. But strangely, on many occasions, I still find myself sad not to be included in things the two of you do. It felt strange not to be part of your lives... I must admit. I miss the lower secondary days. I missed writing letters for advice... That day, when I saw you all at Cathay... There a pang of sadness. But still, I told myself. It's over, it's gone.
Then, on another occasion, I was reminded of a certain letter. By P. Hmm... I don't know if you remember. But I remember it was a letter that touched me immensely. It was a promise of everlasting friendship, for real. I made the same promise back. I've always laughed at couples that make shout outs of forever but break up anyway... And I realised, I haven't exactly been keeping mine either.
Maybe you don't share my sentiments. It's okay. But I'd like you two... Both to know that. I did cherish you all... And I still do. I don't deny that there was a period of time where I threw it all away. Maybe like a lost love, things can never be the same again. But I'd like you two to just remember that I'm still your friend. I'm willing to be the call away friend I used to be. Love you two loads...
Will we have another day like this?
Cause days like these should last...
Today, as I browsed through past photographs, I realised something. I do miss you guys after all. For a while when we came to Harmony, I thought I'd lost you all for good. Then, I found Jon and yada yada. Basically, I lost you two or rather, you could say I let you two slip away from me. I thought a lot about it and I kept thinking. Was it true that I was just too different from the two of you and that's why I couldn't fit in? I don't know. I guess that's what I let myself believe. And lately I've come to realise that maybe that's just an excuse I made for myself. I didn't want to tell myself that... "Hey, it's your fault. You didn't try hard enough..." I don't know. Frankly, I thought I tried and I always believed that it was you guys who weren't trying or rather... Didn't bother trying anymore. Come Secondary Four and I thought... It's over. It was like a broken relationship with no more love. I evaded you two. Thought that was the best way. Till a conversation with Jon brought me back to Earth.
And it struck me.
I had two perfectly best friends in CCHMS. I could have been really happy there... But I wasn't. Because I lost them. That was the first downfall of my CCHMS life. Truly. Since the two of you kept growing closer and me, away from you all. I started to build this wall of defence around myself. I told myself that... I was going to be okay without you two and I wouldn't miss you all that much. But I was wrong. I still miss Threesome, really. I thought I'd convinced myself that it didn't matter how close you two were and how drifted I was from the two of you. I figured... I was hurt enough. It probably wouldn't happen anymore. But strangely, on many occasions, I still find myself sad not to be included in things the two of you do. It felt strange not to be part of your lives... I must admit. I miss the lower secondary days. I missed writing letters for advice... That day, when I saw you all at Cathay... There a pang of sadness. But still, I told myself. It's over, it's gone.
Then, on another occasion, I was reminded of a certain letter. By P. Hmm... I don't know if you remember. But I remember it was a letter that touched me immensely. It was a promise of everlasting friendship, for real. I made the same promise back. I've always laughed at couples that make shout outs of forever but break up anyway... And I realised, I haven't exactly been keeping mine either.
Maybe you don't share my sentiments. It's okay. But I'd like you two... Both to know that. I did cherish you all... And I still do. I don't deny that there was a period of time where I threw it all away. Maybe like a lost love, things can never be the same again. But I'd like you two to just remember that I'm still your friend. I'm willing to be the call away friend I used to be. Love you two loads...
Will we have another day like this?
Cause days like these should last...
11:17 PM